Grenade in a Jar
A Habit of Self Deceit • Lorena Turner SIGNED
Regular price $34.95
Photographs by Lorena Turner
8 x 6 1/2"
Color prints bound in heavy board, color print on front and back cover
A Habit of Self Deceit and is the story of Lorena's relationship with her adopted, alcoholic mother told through photographs and text. After being estranged from both of her parents for the better part of 30 years, Lorena reentered their lives in 2016 after her mother moved out of the house she shared with Lorena's father in Florida for almost 25 years to live in an assisted living facility for people with dementia. Lorena always wanted a closer relationship with her father, so she started to visit him once a month, and soon began exploring neighborhoods close to where he lived, seeking a visual metaphoric language to describe this seismic shift she was experiencing in her life. The book comes out of these experiences. The term - a habit of self deceit - was derived from a concept in existentialist philosophy coined by Jean-Paul Sartre and Simone de Beauvior, bad faith, which describes the habit that people have of deceiving themselves into thinking that they do not have the freedom to make choices for fear of the potential consequences of making a choice, it is also commonly understood as to mislead or deceive another. For Lorena the term refers to decisions made by her parents throughout the course of their lives, and how their orientation to their lives impacted her relationship with herself.